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In
Glenborrodale Castle, there once hung a doctored picture. It adorned
a wall of the dining room, where it was beheld by many pairs of
admiring eyes, yet still withheld its secret. A slender fair-skinned
young woman in a heavy crimson brocaded dress gazed softly into a
crystal ball. Her focus entirely taken by what she saw, her
countenance devoid of emotion. Was she pleased, relieved, shaken?
Were the tidings fortunate or sorrowful?
Those
who looked upon her posed these questions and more. She appeared
innocent, but could you be sure? Was her work witchcraft or a gift?
With her head bent and eyes cast down, she betrayed no clue as to
what she was seeing, let alone thinking or feeling. Was she
witnessing scenes of humble life or incoming death? Her apparent
calmness always affected guests in the dining room so that each would
speculate, as they consumed, their future happiness or doom.
Whoever
sat on their own before the picture addressed her in a pitiful whine
or whisper: Tell me my fate... My destiny...
All
minds, at times, have a burning curiosity to know the unknown; to
stake a small claim on their prosperous future or to divert the
course of predicted tragedy. Unfortunately, in this instance, the
widely-held assumptions were incorrect. She did not know destiny. She
could not see into their future. The crystal ball, after all, was
not her primary apparatus, it was secondary. The real tool of her
trade was deemed too horrible, too sinister... If someone had pulled
back the dark blue curtain or looked more closely the truth would
have been seen, but it wouldn't be discovered until much later when
the painting was cleaned.
When
the skull once more emerged from behind the curtain, many human minds
had been rummaged in and a vast number of lives meddled with. Mind
pictures had been read, recorded, restored or stolen; the originals
or copies now the rightful property of the Skull Maiden.
Whatever
you might have heard, she existed. She came from a long line and
their methods were before their time like Leonardo da Vinci. The
Skull Maiden pictured, it's said, was the most beautiful, but also
the most dispassionate. Her warm eyes left you cold for her focus was
so clear, so unwavering, and nothing could disturb her cool exterior.
To be in her presence, as I understand it, was chilling.
But you
don't get that sense from either the no skull or with skull picture.
The skull is a relic of all the maidens' endeavours combined to delve
into as many minds as possible in their allotted time. To alter
people's past and present memories, to change how they might create
those in the future. To understand the mind and build a foundation,
then a bricked wall from historical memory. To partake in a form of
sorcery with spiritual and scientific connotations. The left versus
the right brain. It was one big game. A study where consent was not
sought, which would now be considered unethical.
Memory,
as each Skull Maiden learnt, is not infallible. It waxes and wanes,
nobody's memories, even of the same event, are the same. The crystal
ball traced the readable ones and the laying of hands on the skull's
temples unlocked them. The skull would glow as the maiden's
fingertips probed and pulled ancient or newly-made memories from its
person. All would be opened, their contents logged and a copy
archived in a translucent brick. After which, some were wiped, some
restored, and others modified, before being returned to the person.
There was no protocol. It depended on the whim of the Skull Maiden.
An
individual's mind picture may change, yet it always retains some
essence of its story. The Skull Maiden however loses the intellect,
that capacity to divulge her own. She is all memory – she remembers
so much, she forgets what's hers to own.
The
parish priest gave a short address and then the final blessing,
“Guard this place and this house and the souls of those who dwell
there.” He made a sign of the cross in the air and sprinkled holy
water on the virgin.
The
virgin this year looked a little worn and pale with her delicate,
blonde colouring, but still resplendent. Everyone knew the service
was drawing to a close as the eldest woman rose to bathe the virgin's
feet. The congregation fidgeted and audibly sighed as the smell of
cakes and pies wafted in from the adjacent room. Their ears tuned to
the rehearsal of the band so that rows of legs bounced with
uncontrolled jigging.
The
whole of the house blazed with candles, electric lighting, and
mantelpiece fires. The congregation were rosy-cheeked and sweating;
some men were mopping their brows with their striped handkerchiefs,
while the women took to fanning themselves with the printed order of
service sheet. The virgin bride was starting to look bored and other
members of the congregation were beginning to fidget more and more.
Finally,
the cleansing of the virgin's feet was complete and the signal was
given for all to rise. The priest, the deacon and the sub-deacon led
the bare-foot bride down the centre aisle, the eldest woman followed
with the bride's pearly slippers and the rest of the red-faced
congregation filed behind.
The
priest positioned the anointed virgin bride at the door into the
Great Hall, the eldest woman bearing the slippers beside her. The
deacon and sub-deacon in their flowing surplices stood like sentries
either side. The priest mumbled a few words in Latin and swept down a
long corridor to a cramped vestry to conduct confession; a room which
once had in fact been part of the kitchen and had a disused serving
hatch. The hatch on the other side now gave onto the drawing room
with cosy armchairs and a glowing fire. The priest reached through
and helped himself to the ruby-filled decanter and a wine glass. It
was going to be a long night...
Meanwhile,
the virgin bride was rapidly shaking hands and accepting kisses of
congratulations. When she came to the end of the line, the eldest
woman helped her put her newly-washed feet back into her slippers,
whereupon she paraded herself around the ballroom on the arm of a
non-existent groom and performed a rather balletic first dance. All
the while, her blue eyes were trained on a single spot: the roasted
suckling pig, which unfortunately with her many leaps and turns made
her feel sick, so that her finishing pose was a dramatically clutched
stomach.
The
wedding feast was in full swing; some of the assembly were moving out
of time with the band to their own rhythm, but most were stuffing
food into their gaping mouths. The virgin bride was forbidden to
partake, apart from a slice of cake which she had yet to cut, because
at present she was still being claimed by numerous dance partners who
twirled her exhaustively about the sprung floor.
The
last partner on her dance card twirled her to the ivory tower. She
cut herself a generous wedge, revealing the Victoria sponge, and
stretched her small mouth around it. The raspberry jam oozed like
blood and left a sticky mess on the front of her brilliant white
wedding dress. Then, still chomping she was unmercifully grabbed and
dragged out of the house and down a rocky pathway towards the shore.
The crowd unleashed her on the edge and retreated to a safe distance,
clamping their hands over their ears to drown out the eerie whistles
of the wind and the wails of the sea. In the moonlight, the trembling
virgin bride prepared to be whisked into the crashing tide, married
as she now was to the darkest depths beneath.
*Inspired by the vision of
Edvard Munch and Penelope Fitzgerald's The Beginning of Spring
When
I was a boy, an old native Indian gave me a horse's head. A tiny
silver charm, that fitted neatly into my palm, and was inscribed with
these words on the back: Horse...
Give Me Power.
It's
long gone now; it disappeared many years ago on the first part of the
journey. The sun burnt a hole in my trouser pocket, just wide enough
for two of my fingers to wiggle through, and so I imagine the horse's
head dropped onto the sand, or bounced off a hill or a rock. Although
lost to me now, I've never forgotten the rough feel of it. By touch
alone you could make out the horse's head: short jagged points were
its mane, a slight bump was its forehead, a round tip was its nose
and mouth, a strong curve its powerful neck, and a protruding lump
the turquoise stone set in its throat. It was about the size of a
standard fifty-pence piece, only thinner.
I
thought it was girlish, but I held on to it anyway; I never shown it
to anyone, not even my younger sisters. I carried it in my trouser
pocket and began to hang about the Indian. He kept a tin shack as a
native American shop on a piece of London wasteland, which now I
think back was strange in itself, but as a kid you accept these
things. He was ancient with braided silver hair and leathery skin -
his cheeks were as creased as a parched desert - and he dressed
casually in a shell suit with a pair of worn moccasins. He said to
call him King, but I've no idea if this was his name or not, and his
shop was a mishmash of feather headdresses, toy bows and arrows,
dream-catchers and animal skins. He never seemed to have much custom
being kinda off the beaten tourist track.
The
barren land in front of his shack was like a parking lot. He owned a
gold Ford Cortina, a pale orange Avenger and a white imported
Mustang, although none of them were taxed or roadworthy. We'd lean
against their hoods or sit on the narrow strip of asphalt, he in a
hide-upholstered armchair and me on a wooden stool, and pow-wow about
all sorts of things from weird dreams we'd had to lessons of
survival. I learned a lot in those years, including how to drink and
smoke.
Then
one day I turned up as randomly as ever and King, and mostly
everything about him, had disappeared. His tin shack stood empty and
all his cars were gone. I thought perhaps he'd got ill, or died or
finally been moved on by the council. I sat in his abandoned
armchair, smoking a little weed and knocking back the cans of
Foster's I'd brought him. I fumbled the horse's head and must have
fallen asleep in my inebriated state as the sun was going down. A hot
breath disturbed my comatose. At first I thought it was just a sultry
breeze, but then there came another short puff with a snort. I
cautiously opened my eyes and found to my surprise a pair of
cavernous nostrils flaring at me. In fright, I jumped onto the seat
of the armchair to be eye level with 'IT'.
The
'IT' was a dappled grey stallion with a thick platinum blonde mane
and tail, and which seemed to me taller than your average equine
breed. The horse positioned itself sideways on and impatiently
stamped its front right hoof, Get on! Get on! I hoisted myself
against its side and swung my leg over its bare back. I squeezed my
thighs and we took off, with me clinging perilously to its strong
neck.
The
land shimmered ahead as you imagine it would in a desert heat wave. In
this dream-like place, it was blisteringly hot and the horse kicked
up dust from the ground, but the air was a cornucopia of sound. Birds
chirped and insects buzzed all around. I lost track of time as if my
body was alive, but had gone underground. Perhaps it was an just for
an hour or for days... I threw myself off when the desert turned to
sea and let the horse run free. I blacked out as the ocean licked my
face, only to find myself slumped, back in the now vacant parking
lot, over a rocking horse that resembled my anonymous steed.
*Inspired by song of same
title written by Dewey Bunnell and originally recorded by America
“That
woman was skulking at the window again!” the smugglers grumbled as
they unloaded their cargo from the wagons.
“The
landlord's niece thinks we don't see her, but we do.” Said Harry
the pedlar with an evil chuckle. He swung his lantern up so that she
again withdrew sharply into the black damp room with its peeling
wallpaper.
*
Jamaica
Inn. Joss and Jem Merlyn. Aunt Patience. Mary and charlatan parson
Francis Davey. Smugglers, wreckers and horse thieves...
Maria
pulled herself out from her daydream, letting go of the scene she'd
just created. She'd inserted herself as if she was in the novel:
drawn to the goings-on outside her window and had conjured up Du
Maurier's dark, fugitive world of moonlight, clopping hoofs, low
voices and drizzle. Imagined herself in Mary's place, but without her
boyish senses: she had been seen!
How was
it that the scenes Du Maurier painted were more real than those in
front of her? She was not Mary, she was not in Cornwall, and she was
not in the nineteenth century!
She
reluctantly dragged her full consciousness back to the view that
could be seen from her hotel window: the bay of a Spanish seaside
town, but as she did she spoke aloud the words of Francis Davey,
“Yes, I am a freak in nature and a freak in time. I do not belong
here, and I was born with a grudge against the age, and a grudge
against mankind.”
Maria
too felt that same grudge, like the stab of a knife in her side; she
was a freak like Davey which meant that peace was still hard to find
in the twentieth century. The opposite to Davey, she was not an
albino so unlike him had no halo of white hair. She was squat, with
skin as brown as a nut and coal-black curls, and she wore white with
vertical stripes instead of Davey's sombre black. She disliked people
seeing her up close, but didn't mind if they stared at her back. Her
darker skin, she felt, was unsightly and her face resembled that of a
pug's: eyes too close together and nose squashed flat, and so when
she ventured outside she hid behind a white scarf.
The
staff at the hotel were used to her peculiar sense of herself and
eccentric nature since she'd been holidaying here since she'd been
struck with a childhood fever. A fever which had left her lungs
scarred, and which for the sake of her health meant abandoning
England for six months every year. A life sentence of quietude where
only novels were allowed to excite her, so that now even being abroad
with people whose skin was as gypsy-looking as hers was not enough.
She craved old-fashioned adventure: desolate landscapes, tossing
seas, and unruly characters who intrigued and never reacted quite how
you expected them to. Reality however only gave her peacefulness:
blue rippled waters, a light refreshing breeze and a lone dingy. Calm
and order. A sense of nothingness. Monotony and boredom.
Maria,
as always under doctor's orders, tried to desperately hold on to this
restorative scene, but like a caught fish it slipped from her grasp.
The daylight faded, the wind blew harder and the lone dingy with the
barely-filled sail became a galleon heading for the rocks. She could
clearly see the wreckers waiting on the shore to launch themselves
into the stormy seas and retrieve the floating goods: rolls of silk,
cases of oranges, brandy and tobacco.
Her
pose at the open window said she thought she should move, but was
compelled to stay with her private picture. She was drunk and giddy,
like the landlord of Jamaica Inn, on Daphne Du Maurier's words.
*Inspired by Salavador Dali and
Daphne Du Maurier's Jamaica Inn