Have you ever wanted to walk
out? Just stand up and walk out of a room, not looking back, push
through a door and slam it or let it swing to violently; out of a
workplace because if you don't the caged animal in you might scream
the place down; out of life, the one you're presently living, to
start afresh elsewhere. In a new town or city where nobody knows your
face or name or anything about you. Where everything will be
untouched, and clean and shiny, and where the only thing you haven't
fled is yourself.
Therein lies the omitted
problem: it's mostly You. And that, no matter what you walk or run
from, you can't escape. Ever. Not even death, in my opinion, allows
you to do that. The game reset starts over but with those same
challenges, though the You you were might look very different to the
You you were before, but then you won't remember that, unless the
walls between these worlds have crumbled, but then what would be the
point in returning in a different guise?
To live forever would have
drawbacks, don't you think? Imagine: the boredom of being the same
person! I'm bored with me now! and at the very least I have another
30 years if I avoid freak accidents and health complications. Some of
you, I guess, might welcome eternal life if you cling to the person
you are currently. However it still seems a bit advanced,
scientifically and spiritually, if you ask me. And there still might
be the loss of youth and vitality because progress in these areas is
piecemeal. Ha! is what I want to say to those who want to age but
don't want to age if you know what I mean. The internal workings
might be in better order but your outward appearance might still
alter. Slowed down, marginally. With more time, things will still
slip and slide. Eventually.
Make your choice: good health
and cognitive function or beauty. Is that choice really so hard? Maybe
it is for aesthetically-pleasing people? Then, perhaps you've made
yourself into one of those sculpted beauties; everything that could
be done has been done. If that's the case, I don't know what to say
for I have no idea, nor does science, how these make-over procedures
will age. Again, time, and rather more of it, will tell those tales
and trot them out for the world to see either as pin-ups or horror
stories.
Man, (as in human rather than
getting ourselves in a tangle over stereotypical behaviour or gender
identification), likes to tinker. Think: evenings and weekends spent
under the bonnet of a car or repairing some appliance so that's it's
as good as new or even better. We like to improve things, be it our
cars, homes or our bodies, and yet we don't seem to know when to
stop. When instead of making the best of whatever we've got, we end
up papering over the already re-papered cracks. When it comes to our
ageing bodies some of us go to extremes, even trying too hard to make
it look like they're not when they have, they are. Everything, at the
end of the day, is a temporary fix, even if you've taken drastic
measures to get there. As in, if you adhere to my belief, we're all
going to die someday, though you can die and still be living.
Huh? Oh yes, we all experience
'little deaths': changing schools and jobs, moving house, leaving
childhood to enter adolescence, then transitioning from that to
adulthood, dealing with blossoming and fading looks, and illnesses
that might bring physical and emotional changes, throughout our
lifetimes. What do they indicate? The end of a significant period.
Period.
Oh, why can't we work through,
deal with these losses? Embrace it, rather than actively prevent or
fight against it. No, I don't know the answer, because I've had my
own struggles, but I do know that the dilemmas we often concoct are
psychological. And the weight we give to them is damaging, and not
just superficially either.
Wouldn't it be easier if we
could just tinker with our lives, as writers do with plots, so that
we wouldn't have the stress of the (perceived) consequences of doing
something or other or the logistical nightmares? View it without
having to actually live it instead of taking irreversible action that
we later regret or cry over. God, however, in his infinite wisdom
would probably say: Play children, play.
Picture credit: The Luncheon of the Boating Party, Pierre Auguste Renoir